Be an aid to your healing

As someone who has been sick, injured, and recovering for most of my adult life, and as someone who likes to learn, I’ve never just accepted what someone said to be a “cure” as final truth. This isn’t always good, but for you, now, it is. I want to share with you some of my lessons learned so you can be an aid to your own healing.

Our body’s hurt and ache for a reason. Every time we try to “pray away” the pain, take a pill to silence it, or push past the pain and “suck it up,” we are telling our body to “Shut up! You are getting in my way! I don’t care what you have to say. I want you to do this, now!” This will not produce the healing that we want.

There is a time and place for each of these things (prayer, medicine, moving forward) and they are extremely helpful tools for healing, but, the next time you get a pain, feel a hurt, experience a headache, stop, and pause. Before you again kneel down to pray, before you again reach for that bottle of pain killers, before you again push through, pause. Ask yourself why are you doing this? Take a moment and actually ask the body what it needs, what would nourish it, what would feed it, what would heal it? Take a moment to listen to the body speaking it’s hurts and pains. Often, a simple answer comes: limit the coffee intake, eat organic, sleep more, exercise, yoga, meditate, spend time listening and sitting in the silence. Some pains are much more complex but I believe we know this too, when we take the time to pause and listen, asking the body what it needs. Those fears that we may experience are again, the body speaking. If you feel this fear, or any other emotion, pause, notice it, know that it’s a feeling, and ask again, what do you need, body? Stop, listen. Then, go and see a doctor, a chiropractor, a psycho-therapist, get a massage, try acupuncture, detox, practice yoga nidra (at home), take supplements. Follow through on what you know to be stirring in your heart and mind, through your body.

Be open to the leadings of the body. Let the journey of life be just that, a journey. Pause, listen to that still, small voice, and let humility rise. The body is intelligently designed by a God that loves it as part of a whole. We are triune beings: body, mind, and spirit, and like a 3-legged stool, when the legs are uneven, we will not be balanced and function well. This body sends hurt and pain signals to the brain highlighting that something is wrong. Take a moment to listen, and then, act.

In time, the perfect time, as we continue to pause and listen, as we slow down, the healing and wholeness that the body, and God, have been longing for, all along, will come.

Enjoy the journey. Namaste.

Are you a sissy?

I’ve been exploring femininity both in myself and in the yoga classes I teach and have found it to be profoundly enlightening.

I told my students in class today to embrace their “sissy side.” I said it to provoke. I said it to stir up (real) belief systems. And I ask this question of you now to get straight to the heart of the matter, breaking old thought patterns and bringing freedom. How does this make you feel? Are you a sissy?

If you are still reading, ask yourself what is a sissy, anyway? I know what school kids mean by it when they say it and that proves my point: there is a real attack and diminishing of feminine qualities in our world. (Why is a whole other story, so I’ll skip that for today.) What I want to invoke is an embrace of the Divine Feminine that each one of us has. Femininity is nurture, kindness, patience, gratitude, interdependence, emotion, meekness, sensitivity, quietness, grace, innocence, flirtatiousness, softness, acceptance, love. These are great qualities to possess! Ones that our world is desperate and hungry for! So, I ask again, will you embrace your “sissy side?”

In a world that idolizes masculine traits such as independence, aggression, tough skin, competition, strength, experience, activity, self confidence, harshness, rebellion; in a world where even women try to be more masculine in order to get by and make it (in singleness, in careers, in order to be seen at church, etc.), we all may need to embrace our “sissy side!” (There is a difference between being a sissy and embracing aspects of the metaphor, let’s get that straight.)

I want to be both strong and meek, confident and sensitive, aggressive and kind. We need both masculinity and femininity, we need the yin and the yang in our world and in order to have that, we need to first embrace it in ourselves.

Be the change you wish to see in the world.

Let me know how it goes!


High Cholesterol is Good for Us

As I laid on my chiropractor’s table this morning feeling intense pain from the the shifting of my body after all the extensive surgeries I’ve had, injuries I’m recovering from, and scar tissue I am releasing through chiropractic care and Myofascial Release Therapy Massage, I wondered who’s fault it was. Who is responsible for this exhausting pain and the countless dollars I am and have been spending on my life and health? Who can I look to to give answers?

It hit me like a brick. I remembered this above video and even more clarity and revelation came. We, the American people, have been deceived for some 80+ years and brainwashed to believe that cholesterol is bad and causes heart attacks, when in fact, it has NO correlation and low cholesterol is actually extremely bad for our health! Especially for women and the elderly!

In summary, this video above says the following:

1. The “high cholesterol is bad for us” myth has been a scheme of drug companies, vegetable oil businesses, and doctors who stand to profit from it.

2. We the people of the United States had no reported incidence of heart attacks until 1921. Prior to this, we used to eat fried foods, butter, lard, bacon, coconut oil, meats, eggs, etc. for 3 meals a day.

3. Now that we have been indoctrinated to eat “low-fat” diets our heart disease, cancer, diabetes, suicide, anger, depression, ADD, learning disabilities, and autism rates (just to name a few) have more than quadrupled.

4. Low cholesterol is linked to to severe anger, suicide, cancer, diabetes, depression, ADD,  and all the other above diseases.

5. Cholesterol is likened to a firefighter. To say that firefighters cause fires because they are on scene every time there is one and so this means we must get rid of them, is akin to saying cholesterol causes heart attacks. In fact, like firefighters, cholesterol protects our arteries and muscles and skin and body! This is especially true as we age and for women.

6. All the graphs and charts and studies that show cholesterol is linked to heart disease have been altered and are phony.

7. Many studies have shown that being on cholesterol lowering drugs and eating low fat diets actually kill people.

8. Reputable doctors have disagreed with this “science” for years, but out of fear of losing their jobs and funding, they haven’t said anything until after retirement.

9. This PhD scientist in the above video has called this assault on our society a genocide.

10. The mainstream media purposely doesn’t report these facts, due in large part because big businesses own them and it wouldn’t be profitable for them to tell the truth.

Let me tell you, I am not at all happy about this! I can feel, quite literally, in my body, all the effects of my good intending family members and teachers and doctors and dietician’s and school lunch workers and friends who have told me over and over to “not eat so much butter,” to “reduce my cholesterol,” to trim the fat off my steak, to become a vegetarian. I am not saying that being a vegetarian caused the cancer I had, nor am I blaming my parents or doctors. Everyone, including myself, was honestly doing what we all thought was best and healthy!

Now we know better. Now we can choose differently. Now we can tell others the truth. Now we can make a difference 3 times a day.

My advice: question your doctors, become an active participant in your health, read “alternative” information sources, listen to your intuition, know that our bodies are designed perfectly and are miraculous(!!), eat organic and local butter/meat/eggs/lard/coconut oil, do not eat margarine/trans fats/partially hydrogenated vegetable oils/safflower or corn oil/packaged foods.

Change can happen and it all starts with a single step. Let’s march together towards health, not only for ourselves, but for our children, our children’s children, and 100 generations behind them. This is something of lasting impact and we get to do it 3 times a day.

Namaste my friends! Celebrate Thanksgiving in style: eat cream and butter and fat and ham. Organic of course, but that’s a whole other story….

Happy Thanksgiving!


How to prevent colds and illnesses

As of late, I have been noticing that my friends who are 10+ years younger than me often have a cold, or a headache, have to call off work, feel exhausted, and/or aren’t nearly as active as I am. This has lead me to do some research into sickness and diseases. I’ve come across some fascinating articles from pHd’s, university’s, medicals centers, and nurses and wanted to share my findings.

“Nutrition is a widely accepted tool for prevention of chronic diseases” – according to the Washington State University. “Hydration, plant-based foods, probiotics, exercise, and vitamins and minerals are 5 ways you can prevent colds and flus” – says the University of Tennessee Medical Center.

This seems somewhat obvious to me. Don’t most people know these things, I wonder? Are my friends just not privy to such helpful info?

I remember a past roommate of mine who suffered from chronic back pain. I was working for a chiropractor at the time and loved his expertise and suggested she see him. After months of resistance, she finally did and several weeks later she told me, “Wow. I had no idea how much pain I was in! I was so used to it that it became part of my life and I tolerated it. It’s not until I’ve become nearly pain free that I can see how bad it was.” It reminds me of the frog in the boiling water analogy: if a frog is put in a pot of boiling water, it will jump out immediately. If a frog is put into a pot of room temperature water and the heat is added slowly, it will stay there and be boiled to death. I think we humans are the same way, and I’m no exception. We need to think bigger than the pot/situation in which we find ourselves. After all, we aren’t amphibians or reptiles. We can think and choose differently.

I experienced a deadly health condition (ovarian cancer) at 24 and have been exploring what it means to be truly healthy ever since. I can see my own past (and current!) bad behaviors mirrored in others and wonder how I can best use my experience to help. Hitting people over the head with all the knowledge I have hasn’t really worked. Me being silent about it and letting people continue to get colds and have headaches and pain, isn’t helpful either. I’m exploring a different option through this blog and sharing my journey. My hope is that you can avoid the hell that I experienced and live a much richer and fuller life.

So, how have I gained the health I have today after being told multiple times that I wouldn’t live, having had 13 weeks of 8 hours-a-day chemotherapy, a dozen blood transfusions, my abdomen sliced from my sternum to hips 5 times, a 5 pound tumor and 50 tumors taken out-at-one-time? That’s a long story, maybe for another time. The short version is to never give up. Look beyond what you can see. Cry, laugh, sing, dance, do yoga, take supplements, eat organic, work with alternative as well as mainstream health care practitioners and in various fields, talk to people, pray, and keep moving forward.

If you want to read more of my story now, visit and check out the Meet Audrey tab. Today, I take just 3 supplements and eat whole, real, organic food, with the occasional treat to In-n-Out or a steak house. I’ve learned to lighten my grasp on “my health” and I recognize that it’s so often out of fear that we do and don’t do things: I used to be extremely rigid and regimented in what I ate and didn’t, ALL THE TIME. Thankfully, perfect love casts out fear (1John 4:18) and so I lean into His heart for me (and the world) and am watching this fear and control leave as I step into more and more health. It’s funny how it works that way. I let go, still using my knowledge and understanding (not throwing the baby out with the bathwater), and I get even healthier.

May love and health come to you like a river! Thanks for coming on the journey with me. I’d love to hear how it’s going for you.

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