Bali Yoga Video Day 10: Puri Bagus Candidasa Resort

It’s the end of Monday, December 2, and I’ve just come from a really great, fresh, coconut drink, sunset, and conversation with the 2 birthday girls, Betsy and Claire, and several amazing others. Among the highlights of the day, were a nice break from Vinyasa Yoga class for a time of observation (which was AMAZING! I have learned so much from Basil and his skill as an instructor. My students back home are going to love it. ☺), I just had a great conversation with Nicole and Claire about blogs. Shout out to all you lovelies, btw! One of the things that stuck out to me about our conversation are concerns over who will read our blogs? What I shared with Nicole is that that really isn’t my concern. What I know can happen is that we get stuck with this thought and wonderment of “Oh, but what I write about is ‘trivial,’ who would want to read it?’ and this can actually paralyze us with inaction! I have no idea who will read this, if anyone actually cares, but this really isn’t the concern or the point. There are several reasons I am writing this blog: 1. I know deep within, that I should be doing this and I feel overwhelmingly compelled to be doing so. Of course I could not do this, but I make the choice to every day. 2. I want to improve myself and writing things down and recording them is a way to do that. 3. Blogging is forcing me to be very vulnerable and open it is helping me to rid shame. Shame that has tried to hold me (and us all) down, and keep me from being free. 4. I want to better the world and even if my blog is for no other purpose than tonight’s conversation about getting rid of shame, I am bettering the world through it!

So, enjoy this blog. Enjoy the video tour around some of the buildings here at the Puri Bagus Candidasa Resort and I will chat with you tomorrow, hopefully having encouraged you too to live a courageous life, following your dreams, living out loud, and encouraging others as you do.

Namaste!

Bali Yoga Video: Day 9

I’m feeling the effects of 2.5 hours of daily yoga asana! I’m looking forward to taking tomorrow off and observing the amazing Basil Jones from the other side of the yoga mat: the sidelines. It will be good for me to observe and really take in how he works. Ok, stop this serious business! My roommates and I are cracking up right now over French fries and chocolate cake (well they are anyway, I’m here with the computer having eaten a Greens+ Chocolate Energy Bar), laughing hysterically about all sorts of nonsense. We had a restorative yoga class tonight and I just kept laughing! It was hard to be “serious.” ☺

Well, the tiredness is returning. I need to go to bed. I hope you enjoy the video. I will try to get one in the day light soon!

Enjoy! Namaste.

Bali Yoga Teacher Training: Day 6: rest, strength, grace, love

It’s amazing what some good sleep can do. I didn’t sleep well the night before and my yoga practice yesterday was like moving through sand. I could barely lift my leg. Today, however, I got a good amount of sleep and I felt strong and way more able to participate in the entire 2.5 hour class. It’s amazing what a day can make! It’s such a good reminder to give ourselves grace and that tomorrow is a new day. Some of the biggest ideas we are discussing here in our Yoga Teacher Training is to enjoy the present moment, be in the right here, right now; notice what is, what we each feel, notice the truth about ourselves and surroundings, but not to let these things ruin us, not to let these feels/truths/etc. dictate how we respond or behave. My yoga practice yesterday is a good example of that: I enjoyed where I was even though my yoga practice wasn’t much to speak of. I took a lot of child’s poses and/or watched our instructor adjust and cue the other students in the the class as I rested. There were a few moments where a lie tried to creep into my head saying I should feel shameful or inadequate because I wasn’t doing what all the other students were and that I wasn’t good enough, but I consciously chose to not believe it. I consciously chose to give myself grace and take breaks and actually make use of that time and learn, instead of pouting in child’s pose the whole time. (Believe me, I have done that in the past, but I have chosen to not be so selfish anymore.) It feels good to be so present, so able to enjoy the right here, right now. It’s good to be here!!

Happy Thanksgiving by the way!! Nothing too out of the ordinary happened here because of the holiday, there are a lot of non USA students here (actually maybe even most are not American even!) But one of the girl’s, Kate, a lovely new friend from England, made cards for a few of us where she actually drew out typical Thanksgiving images. It was so sweet and cute! I got an incredibly cute turkey wearing cowboy boots, SO American! 🙂

I hope you enjoy this video. This is part 1 of the movie “I Am” which we watched last night. It’s a documentary about the director of the movie “Ace Ventura,” among others, and how his life changed after he had a serious injury. Here’s what the Youtube write up says about it: “We have created a world based on the notion that we are all separate. Fundamentally, there is no separation.” What is cool about this movie is that it interviews some 10+ people of all different walks of life, faith, and beliefs, and shows scientifically how we are all literally connected. This movie shows the power of thought, speech, and how we are shaping our future through it; we are not victims to the world going to hell, we are the ones steering the boat. It’s a powerful movie and I hope you enjoy it!

May you enjoy the moments. May you realize that you are stronger than you think you are. May you know when to say no and be confident in that decision. May you experience deep rest. May you know you are loved.

Namaste!

Bali Yoga Video: Day 5, swimming release

20 minutes in the pool and the pain in my knee is gone! I’m one happy camper. It was hard to leave the pool, frolicking, twisting, butterflying, free-stylin’, stroking on my back, diving, being weightless, it was glorious! But I had to leave to go and watch an INCREDIBLE movie with the group. Thankfully there’s more swimming to be had tomorrow! I’ll share the movie we watched tonight with you tomorrow as my video. Yes, I know, it won’t be me and Bali, but actually, it will be. You will LOVE it.

Namasate!

Day 4 Video: Bali Yoga Teacher Training

Yes, we are doing meditation. Yes, are doing 2.5 hours of Vinyasa yoga (my intention today was joy and I had 2 significant moments while in the practice of hard to describe joy/love/ecstasy of just that!!! YEAH!). Yes, we are learning the history of yoga. Yes, we went through the sun salutes and started to break them down one pose at a time with proper form, adjustments, breath, etc. And, we also are tying it all into awareness and being present in the right here, right now. I also want to add that I came face to face with feelings of “freak out.” I’m not sure how to describe it, but one of the other students mentioned feelings of loneliness and I think it’s partly that. Do you ever feel that? For me it felt like an uncertainty, a deep longing for more than what we see/feel/smell/sense/etc. I have learned techniques through the 3 years I studied at the Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry to check in with God, ask Him where He is, where is Holy Spirit, where is Jesus. I did that today when I felt that “freak out” and immediately felt a great sense of calm, peace, love, acceptance, and support come to me. I became aware of the angelic world that that the Lord had placed 4 protective angels inside the room at each of the 4 corners and I relaxed. I feel so strongly that there are great tools, great experiences, great teachings, great people, great stuff in this life but there is this element of tangible love, tangible other world/heaven reality that is outside ourselves that we have to receive. I am so thankful for the Lord. I have tried so often to trust to feel safe to rest and be present on my own and it has only been through the knowledge that God is here, that He is the creator, that the Divine is bigger than me and outside of me (but yes I know, also in me), that I have come to really trust, feel safe, rest, and be present. All the other stuff are just tools. I am thankful for them both.
Namaste!

Day 3 Video: Bali Yoga Training

I grabbed this video while there was still light during our break between sessions. Great day today! It started with silence until 9:30am and meditation starting at 6:30am. We had a quiet meditation (really casual, no instructions) for about 15 minutes and then another 15 minutes with Chris (one of the co-founders) speaking about being present. Following this was a 2 hour Vinyasa Flow yoga class with Basil (one of the yoga asana practitioners) where he would stop and as we held a pose, he would correct, speak about breath, alignment, why, and refine our practice. I’ve always loved Vinyasa Flow but today Basil described Vinyasa Flow yoga as jazz music and compared Iyengar to classical music. A great analogy to the free flow style of Vinyasa and makes perfect sense why I like it so much: I love the creativity and rhythm that comes out of Vinyasa, with, of course, the understanding of the basics and foundational tools, like a classical music piece. Vinyasa could not exist without the classics, but I so love to explore, experiemnt, and create from a strong foundation. Hello jazz music!

We next came back and Liz (the other co-founder) opened it up for Q&A for Basil, and then had us draw a line from “Day 1” to “Day 22” on an index card. Everyone’s lines were crooked and some curved with ups and downs. She used this to describe the experience that we would have over the next 22 days: that there would be high points and low points, etc. and that we should enjoy the journey no matter the place we are/were in. SUCH a great picture! We then learned about our group activity for the afternoon and our homework and were dismissed for our lunch break.

I stopped by the ocean, not intending to get in, but OH MY!!! WOW! That water is PERFECT! The temperature was just right and I played around for probably 45 minutes in it! I love the water….

We all met back up and shared in our group activity. It was a very vulnerable, open, and honest look at oneself where we would share answers to 4 questions in front of the class. Tears were shed, hearts were exposed, and everyone left encouraged from the honesty and life experiences so many have had, from rape to abuse to quitting full time careers to marriages and kids, to health and healing journeys. It was a profound moment that brought me closer to my fellow classmates and although we were supposed to end today with an hour restorative yoga class, we ran out of time and didn’t have a set routine tonight. Some of the girls and I played on our yoga mats as we talked more about our experiences and the awesomeness of our group.

SO much more than this happened, but this is a brief overview. I am headed to bed now, I can barely keep my eyes open right now…. Enjoy. See you soon. zzzzz…..

Travel, adventures, Bali, and yoga: Day 1

It’s happening! After all this time, preparation, anticipation, studying, packing, saving, and praying, I’m headed to Bali, Indonesia for a month long yoga training! The hardest part so far has been this blog, actually. It’s the new experience for me; one I’m happy to accept and experiment with though and at this moment, it’s helping me stay awake. I hope my $50 Mac “World Travel Adapter Kit” works or this may be the last of these videos….

Enjoy!

Preparation

I will be attending a 3 week yoga training in Bali, Indonesia, in about 3 weeks. In preparation for my training, I have quite an extensive amount of pre-work to do: meditation practice, anatomy and physiology to study, yoga history to learn, physical yoga postures to do, etc. As an extra part of my preparation, I have been learning about the country I will be visiting for nearly a month. This video has been really helpful in this quest.

This video was suggested by a friend who has, for the past 3 years, been living half the year in Bali and half the year in SoCal. How she and I became friends in quite another miraculous story, but the short version is similar to how I determined I would train for yoga in Bali: there is a connection that is felt more than understood; it’s a trust in God that is larger than myself and what is seen; it is confirmed by other friend’s discussions, living arrangements, prior travel experiences, random encouraging text messages and emails, and by my pastors. I have my heart set on the Lord and He directs my passage as I humbly and diligently adjust the sails of my vessel.

As one of the reading materials for my Bali yoga training states: ” The supreme adventure in a (wo)man’s life is (her) journey back to her Creator.” – Light on Yoga by BKS Iyengar. I couldn’t agree more, nor wouldn’t want it any other way.

May this video shed some light on what Indonesia is, where Bali is located, and give you a taste for a land that God loves. I’m excited to journey there!

Namaste!