I was told mold toxicity can take a year to recover from; days like today, and weeks like this one confirm it. It’s been a rough one... .
Although this pic isn’t from today, it nearly could be, except that here @gratefulgaile and I were laughing so hysterically, in our super posh hotel on our last night in India, that it reminds me that challenges occur, and so do belly laughs so deep that you’re sore for days, and everything seems right and good again... ❤️❤️❤️🙏🏽😘
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“I have a right to be here. I have a right to take up space.” 👈🏼 my mantra just now as I’ve been wrapping up from a private client and walking back and forth from my studio to the bathroom.
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We women have been taught to shrink back, let others’ excel, to serve, so often at our own expense. .
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There are a few spots that thud underneath my feet as I’ve been walking just now. My studio is on the second floor and my subconscious thoughts have been: “You’re walking like an elephant. Lighten up! Be poised and put together and don’t disturb the tenants and businesses below.” 👉🏼 The underlying belief is that I am less than and I don’t want to draw too much attention to myself. I am to be seen and not heard. 🤮
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👆🏼 This has been a long process to reprogram my mind to the truth, and one that will never end. With this practice of yoga, as we become aware, we have the opportunity to unite ourselves to our truest and best self. There’s no arrival point. It’s always cyclical and open ended. So again, I practice and find harmony in my mind, body, and soul. .
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Let me know if you want to join me on this harmonious journey with a private yoga session(s). It could be just the adventure we all really crave....
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The “how” doesn’t matter, whether it be sensuality or meditation or yoga poses. There are the basics and there’s strength, yes, but it’s always more about the ability to adapt, the hunger to try, the willingness to do what’s uncomfortable in the moment, the patience and humility needed for the longer term gain and benefit. Each small step forward adds up and suddenly you’re living the life you dreamt about, sunburnt, and happy...
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Although this pic was taken at my Hot Springs Yoga Retreat last year, I did spend the weekend doing very similar things, and I’m still reveling in the magic of it all...
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I keep getting asked about my next retreat, when and where. I’m thinking back here👆🏼in spring 2020. What say you? You up for some Hot Springs Yin/Yang Yoga Retreating? Or something more exotic....?
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A favorite pic of mine that speaks of our adventures, support, connections, travels, fun, challenges, and change. .
This was taken on December 1, 2018 at the launch of the @unitedagainstcancer 2019 swimwear calendar and corresponding fashion show. It was a rough weekend: two days prior to this pic, my apartment flooded with 6-8 inches of water, in the middle of the night. I moved out immediately, quickly realizing a larger problem that had been there all along: my apartment was inundated with mold and I had been breathing and living in it for 9 months. .
It’s been a whirlwind of so much: romance🥰, health challenges, specialist doctors in Sac and SF, emergency room visits, so many antibiotics, homelessness, sleepless nights, purging of nearly everything I own, work and business changes, financial challenges, every emotion possible and all at once, deep fears realized and faced, weight loss, muscle and hair loss, loss of friendships, and more...
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And yet, and yet, look: there was, and there is, happiness. There is love and support and hope and strength. There was and continues to be grace. .
Gawd, it’s been hard, real hard, and, and, it’s been so good. So, so good. .
I’ve been meditating on the fact that change is our only constant. Chaos is the norm. How I choose to respond is the opportunity. Like any other exercise or practice, it can be excruciating during the work, but wow, the benefits are felt and seen after, and I am so thankful. So, so thankful I just kept doing what I knew to do, not giving up, and taking one breath at a time. .
The storm has been settling in my world. I’m beginning to catch my breath. My health and strength are returning. My hair has stopped falling out 👏🏼. What’s next? I’m not entirely sure, and it feels good to not have it all figured out. I’m liking the slow lane...
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Thanks @djram_2000 for this, and so many other incredible pics. 🙏🏽
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True mental health is understanding the blissful, divine, mystical, and true nature of ourselves and of the world. .
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As someone who has suffered much injury, trauma, loss, and attack, both physical and mental, I know the challenges that PTSD, cancer, broken bones, surgeries, and assault can bring. And as a long time meditator, yoga practitioner, and teacher, I know the power there is readily available to recover and heal. .
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The road is not always easy, but nothing worth having ever is. And that makes it all the more sweet and rewarding once we get it, and the battle is won...
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The truth is though, the battle is ongoing, and although this can feel daunting, it’s reassuring that the tools and skills one practices in meditation and yoga get easier and bring more and more sweetness as we continue to unravel the bliss and mystery of our truth. .
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Life is the proverbial onion analogy. And yoga and meditation are called practices for a reason. .
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The triune harmony of our mental, emotional, and physical selves are my passion. Let me know if you want some help achieving that or click the link in my bio. I’ve got a lot of personal and professional experience with this adventure. .
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Here’s to the the last day of Mental Health Month. May this be the first day of the rest of your healthy, whole, harmonious life. ☯️ .
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