“I have no idea.” 👈🏼my response when someone asked me about my plans for this summer. Usually @onwateryoga is off the hook and I’m at the lake all. the. time. Right now, my body is requiring me to take each second as it comes as I continue to recover from mold toxicity. (Yes, still!! I’m heading to UC Davis soon to meet with an Environmental Toxicologist for medical treatment.) I don’t care to rehash symptoms, just think every random ailment sneaking up on you at any given time and for no apparent reason, rendering you lifeless, for as short at 2 minutes, to as long as a few hours. I’m generally fatigued most of the time, still decently strong physically, 🙌🏽 brain is currently pretty foggy and slow, all of which necessitate long stints of rest.
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At 10am today I’m teaching at @balance.yogacenter and then we shall see what’s next. I’d like to hit up @gatherredding and I still have cleaning and organizing and moldy stuff to purge, my body will tell me what’s possible, and when. The little bits of work and the times I get to spend with loved ones are like gems; balance to my personal and deep self healing. One cannot be still all the time, it’d be like the Dead Sea, we need to give and connect and learn and play too, and I’m thankful for both, truly, even though it can be hard. .
So, what’s next? We shall see....
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#reddingyoga #whatnext #noidea #onemomentatatime #moldtoxicity
Our personal thoughts to ourselves are how we will treat others; there is no separation. So, as I practice and am kind and patient and loving and extend grace to my Self, body, and mind, then, and only then, can I give the same to others. .
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Those trial times, the times of great struggle, pain, discomfort, etc. are very reveling: how and what are your thoughts towards yourself in these situations? Practice, right now, encouraging yourself, recognizing that you are making the best decision you can, given the circumstances and situations in which you find yourself, perhaps changing your mind 1000 times to find what serves you and those you care about best, pause, and try again, and then watch as that kindness and compassion, and FUN(!!!) grows within and overflows, reaching and touching those around you. To me, this is true inspiration. 💫 .
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#divinefeminine #takingitslow #whatstherush #livinginthemoment #meditation #thisisyoga #thisisredding #reddingyoga #thebestlife
Do you see it?💖The growth, the breakthroughs, the strength, the huge strides made, the passion, the love, the grace, the fun had...?!!! I am, and letting myself smile in gratitude. .
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Im amazed at my body right now. I just keep doing what I know to do and seeing these huge breakthrough days, even following severe nausea just moments before (thought I would have to get a sub, as I pulled into the @balance.yogacenter parking lot for my class today 🤢). One step at a time. Moment by moment, making new decisions. It’s all we ever have anyway...
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#goingwiththeflow #makingnewchoices #asnecessary #inthemoment #livingnow #moldtoxicity #recovery #strongerthanithinkiam #amazed #nonattachment #freedomtogrow #andchange #andmove #norules #divinefeminine #femininity #beautifulgrace #reddingyoga #thisisawareness #harmony #balanceyogacenter
There’s a myth that resting means doing nothing, absolutely no-thing. HA!!! Impossible, and, not healthy. .
As I heal from toxic mold exposure, I have moments of profound clarity, strength, and stamina, and then moments of deep, dark, pain, dizzy spells, nausea, emotional turmoil, and crazy insomnia, just to mention a few things. .
I’ve cut my teaching schedule WAY back, and have lots of down time for recuperation, AND, the few group classes and private sessions I do have, are helping me to heal just as much. Today was such a day: I was triggered by mold on the 31st and 1st after doing my final move and wash and toss, and have been feeling horrible slowly ever since. This morning was the worst. Then, I had a private client; helping her, helped me get out of the funk and began the breakthrough out of the mental fog. Then, I had my free community yoga class, and that kicked me over the edge: the darkness lifted. I felt SO much better after having done the yoga and deep breathing with everyone. There’s such a gift and grace in practicing, together. 🤗 .
There’s a seed of yang in the yin, and a seed of yin in the yang. ☯️ Rest will have some activity and vice versa. It’s the approach, the awareness, and the choices that we make from and during these moments that make the difference. In yoga we call it a practice, sometimes it’s called the journey, it’s always an adventure, and it’s all good, even the dark bits, and even when it doesn’t feel like it. 🌚🌝
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#reddinggyoga #yogatherapy #thisisredding #norcallife #balanceyogacenter #byc #yinyang #shivashakti #masculinefeminine #dance #harmony #meditation #thankful #breakthrough #thefoghaslifted #breathingdeep #inthistogether #gratitude .
Thanks @chasingshalom for the pic 😘
I want to know: what is friendship to you?
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As I find my health taking an extremely high priority, my dating life becoming more solid, and with work and business and family, I find myself with less time to give and my ideas of friendship evolving... I have more questions than answers as I find myself in uncharted territory: friends have been a lifeblood to me, and now, over the past few months, I’ve found them to change and even drop away like I’ve never experienced. I don’t have kids and don’t want my own, and although I’ve had 1, 2, and 4 year relationships, I’ve never been married so time has been plentiful to give and spend. I don’t have that now and I’m not sure how to navigate this new place... .
I’ve been pretty emotional as of late, tears have graced my face every day for weeks now. Last night I cried pretty good in Janya’s as several songs played that reminded me of my time in India and along the Camino in Spain. I’m in need of another travel adventure. This pic is from this summer’s adventure to Ohio and I leave for Mexico in one week to spend time with family. It feels like a good start to 2019 as I reminisce about 2018. All things considered, life is pretty good, and hard, and wonderful, and terrible. And so it goes....🤠
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#thisislife #mermaiding #onwateryoga #columbusohio #friendship #navigatoroftheseas #growingpains #yeehaw #ahoy #musingsonthepath #reddingyoga #emotional #thankfull #nonattachment #meditation
