Feeling anxious about returning home... not because of the travel, I love traveling, it’s about returning to “normal life:” the monotony, the pressure, the lack, work life stresses... here in Mexico, with my boyfriend, his parents, and mine, I’ve felt so loved, so taken care of, so treasured, so relaxed, so free... going back home means coming back to reality, and I have a lot of mixed feelings about it. .
In my stories I posted @the.holistic.psychologist meme about how trauma manifests in adulthood: for me it’s been overthinking and taking things personally. I’ve come SO far in healing from PTSD and all the death sentences I was given with my battle of ovarian cancer in 2001-2003, but every now and then trauma surfaces, and it happens to be right now, while I’m trying to sleep, before my return flight home. It does have me celebrating my recovery though! How I’m feeling right now was how I used to feel about 95% of the time. Honestly, now, however, I’ve worked so hard, I’ve taken so many purposeful steps, I’ve put into practice so many yogic practices that I feel good, really, really good, nearly 95% of the time. This trip here in Mexico has really showed me that: Content. Happy. Sexy. Relaxed. At ease. Flirty. Still recovering from mold toxicity symptoms, yes, but on the inside, at peace with all that is, most of the time... that 5% is being stirred up right now and I’m putting to practice the yogic tools again: feeling the feelings that I have, allowing them to rise, allowing them to go. Welcoming it all... There’s no greater than or less than. There’s just the now...
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See you soon California. I’ve been hoping to have an @onwateryoga class soon, but your weather is NOT looking good for it... 😕 that’s ok, it will happen when the time is right. Until then, so many other fun things!! Nidra Restorative Workshop at @balance.yogacenter on Friday, 1/24 for the New Moon, and the Shiva/Shakti Hot Springs Retreat, April 24-26!! There’s just a few spots left. Get all the details via the link in the bio. Adios Mexico, until next time. ❤️
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Instead of commanding the body to be still, invite stillness to enter... what would it feel like, what would it feel like in this body, to find balance? 👆🏼trauma informed cuing. .
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Video from Friday night in my studio after a long (good!) day of clients. My studio is always a magical place, and night time is no exception. Happy I don’t want to leave it... even after a full day: it feeds me too. .
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Because this earth is our only home, what we buy, wear, eat matters. I’m happily wearing @wolventhreads because they continually impress me with their ever evolving work to go sustainable, not just recycled, but clothes made of bamboo, donating money back to clean the oceans, packaging that can be composted. 🙏🏽👏🏼🙏🏽 Get 20% off with my code: AudreyDlong20 and I get a small kick back too. Everyone wins. 🌎 ❤️🧘🏻♀️
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@ommommy thanks for this inspiration!!! I’ve never been able to nail this before... 💥 🤗
This... Join me: April 24-26, 2020 here👆🏼for my 4th Hot Springs Yoga Retreat! 🤤 This year, we’re exploring the dance between tangible and spiritual, masculine and feminine energies, called Shiva Shakti in India. With various styles of yoga, meditation, breath work, live music and song, we will feel our body’s movement become a medicine in these sacred practices. In this Divine dance of Shiva Shakti we can let go, flow and move, feel and yield, growing stronger in our exercise and knowledge of who we are, now. Movement and change stimulate consciousness, they stir the watery essence of feelings that flow through the body and in this exploration we can heal, and have a whole lot of fun. Plus... the hot springs! Each room has its own private tub, full of hot spring water. Learn more and register via the link in the bio. I would love to have you join. 🥰 Right now there are 2 private rooms and a few shared rooms left. 👏🏼 .
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This belly: we’ve been through a lot together. I’m currently doubled over in agony 💨😷 because of the raw food I attempted yesterday. 😕 I’ve been able to add some raw food back into my diet, but yesterday was obviously too much. It’s been a bit rough since lunch yesterday, yet I can feel that things are different and changing overall, and I am so SO thankful!!! 🙏🏽 It’s baby steps and I just keep doing what I’m doing: no alcohol, lots of rest, stretching, mild yoga and exercise, tons of meditation, lots of Yoga Nidra’s, mainly cooked foods, organic of course, all the pro and pre-biotics, mother’s milk/colostrum isolate, glutathione, @foriawellness hemp caps (SUPER helpful for intestinal distress... which reminds me, I need to take another! Get 10% off when you use the code: AudreyDLong10), all the @lasaludorganics normal/daily supplementation and tincture support, fermented foods at every meal... and probably some other things that I’m forgetting... prayer is helpful, as well as letting all the trauma’s rise up and pass through... This black mold recovery process is something, and just like so many other things, I’m supported through it, even if that doesn’t look exactly as I’d like it to... I’m healing, even if it’s not as fast as I’d like... I am strong, even when there are so many moments where I feel weak... I am beautiful, even though I feel like I’ve aged 20 years in the last year and a half... .
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Here’s to the journey! 🥂 A new year is coming and I’m happy to be living it. .
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